Tag-agosto is like tag-hirap, crisis, amihan (not hanging amihan, term i got recently from my mother). Something like that. ;-)

Sino ba nagsabi? This too shall come to pass. Well anyway…there came a point I doubted my capabilities first and foremost as a mother. Then as an individual. I can’t explain more…it’s just that when I thought I got things covered early on - more specifically in my hope of becoming a good parent - suddenly it smacked me in the face that I do not. Just proves to show that there really are things beyond my control.

I stayed away from the tv, from the local news and the world news. Heck, I did not even watch the Beijing Olympics! I just floated and I admit there were couple of times I wanted to just sink. I just can’t. First of all, it isn’t in me to just give up. Never was. I can crawl if need be.

I stayed away from the blogosphere, I even missed blog-hopping on my daily doses of favorite blogs. I’ve just never been more scatterbrained than ever.  I guess all my life I’ve been playing too many roles. It’s like my arms are widespread on all the things I wanted to cover until I can’t stretch my arms anymore. Somebody told me to prioritize. He is really right. Prioritize I did. In the last two years since we came home I’ve been so caught up in bringing whatever I can bring to the table, in the process I have forgotten that I have a man to raise.

Five years ago, I’ve always been complaining that I cannot wait for Raine to just grow up, I cannot wait to wake up one day and find him a man standing on his own two feet. But then there are no shortcuts. I gotta sweat out and bleed out along the way before we get there, while enjoying the whole process as well before each chapter is gone.

So…I gotta stop treating my brothers like 5 year olds and stop treating Raine like he is 20. Believe me, they exchange ages sometimes. Boys! While my mother is my mother, period. She only had the best intentions ever since and she still has. ;-)

Yan lang muna in that department.

I stayed away from the tv…except that nagsawa ako kakarinig ng plugging nina KC at Richard ng kanilang ‘For The First Time’ movie. Parang lahat ng shows sa ABS for the whole week, andun silang dalawa!

Isn’t that a Bryan Adams song included in the soundtrack of the Barbara Streisand starring-movie ‘The Mirror Has Two Faces’? I could be wrong, blame it to memory gap! He he.

Well, KC is showbiz royalty. Her path in showbusiness has been paved for her even before she was conceived. I adore her in a way that she has been raised up well despite being too privileged to have the best things in life. She seems like a fine educated young woman, with a good head over her shoulders. I don’t mean the looks, she’s really pretty kahit bagong gising, if you are reading her at multiply. I’m just a little bit disappointed that she took such a path already laid out for her. Wala lang. I just believe she’s wayyyy better than all the pa-cutes and pa-eklabus in pinoy showbiz.