The Journey. It’s Mine. [My personal take on love, life, parenting and blogging.]

So much to blog about but doesn’t have the time nor the energy to blog about it. Every blogger knows the exact feeling. Also I think it is borderline to losing that blogging groove.

Anyway, I’m still crunching that job at W and that explains mostly why my brain is switched to the direction opposite blogging. Though there’s FB to keep me updated with what’s going on within my circle of friends and vice versa, I still feel that visiting blogs is more fun and personal. It actually saddens me that when I blog hop these days, most blogger friends aren’t updating as often as they used to. They’ve caught the FB bug as well.

‘Been alone here since the New Year. A was here for 10 months in 2011 but went back down South for another gig. Then my family came for the holidays and it was just heartwarming after not seeing most of them for a year. It was heart-filling spending time with them and most of all with Raine. It was just kinda bitin. The holiday season went by so fast. Then it was time to get back to regular work mode again.

It’s both weird and sad being alone. Quiet yes, peaceful at times. A lot of ME times, yes. But it’s just lacking. I guess I am not used to it anymore.

Tomorrow is Chinese New Year and it’s a holiday now. Imagine that?! Well I’m just grateful for the additional rest day after a really hectic week. Nothing more.

…4 years…

…can’t let go…

Recently I moved into a new unit in my apartment building. Though still on the same floor,I have a lot better view and I’m actually facing Mount Makiling this time. In the afternoons, I can have a good taste of the much coveted sunshine — which do not work too well when I’m in front of my computer monitor. But then I’m not here at daytime most days of the week, so I’m not really complaining.

Accidentally, I was forced to spend a four-day weekend here because conjunctivitis got the better of me. Then it rained today and for the first time in weeks I can actually feel some real December chill. Hooray!

Wow…it has been a year on the day job. Which also means I have not done any real blogging in that span of time. These days I just resort to Facebook to get updated with online friends. Imagine that?! I do miss blogging a lot of course, but I just had to do what I gotta do, right?

Well…tomorrow is another day and I have to get up 15 minutes earlier than usual because shuttle bus schedules recently got adjusted.

New alarm setting? Check!

Let’s just hope that my internal clock adjusts to it as well.

Good night everyone.

Where did the time go? The ber-months are here…soon Christmas will just be ’round the corner.

So I’ve been busy with the day job and my new life out here. There was just no extra time to blog and my weekends have been dedicated for resting and recharging. We all need to do that, I suppose…

Two more months to go and I’ll be here a year already, time indeed flies. Despite the highs and lows of the last ten months, definitely there was not a minute spent in vain. Despite the constant homesickness and all the other crazy stuff around, it will be all worth it in the end I guess. It just has to be…;-)

Well I just really wish there’ll be another long weekend soon. But there’ll be none, at least not until the Christmas holidays. In that case, I wish the next 3 months will just fly a lot faster than usual. Haha!

Drained.

That’s the word that perfectly describes my general state of being by the end of each work week.

So that justifies my total laziness on weekends. Eating and sleeping in alternate successions. But choosing between sleep and food? I always pick sleep.

They say I should get some exercise. Oh, I do get a lot of that running after PUVs on my daily commute.

All this ‘holiday’ is making me feel a little homesick. Would have been nicer to be home and eat some home-cooked meals. I truly miss my mother’s cooking, what will all the crap I’ve been eating lately. No time to cook that’s all. One of the downsides of having a day job I guess.

But that doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate the few days off work due to the Holy week, been catching up on some much-needed rest and sleep. Of course there’s apartment stuff to take care of and some reading on Mesothelioma and other stuff.

The summer heat can certainly be felt around here especially on a Good Friday. Would have been nice to relax on a beach somewhere. Some other time perhaps. Real relaxation is a ‘luxury’ I cannot afford just yet. He he.

A arrived in LB 2 months ago. First of all to visit me and second of all to fix a problematic database system at W. He’s been working at home most of the time to do that though, as opposed to me working on-Site on a daily basis. Fortunately I work regular shifts and get Saturdays and Sundays off. But then sometimes weekends aren’t enough to recharge and unwind. I’m still under treatment for my thyroid problem and and so I naturally get tired easily than normal.

Moreover, the anti-thyroid agent I’m taking lowers my immunity making me more prone to infections than the average person. Still I try to counter that by taking vitamins religiously, eating right and getting enough rest and sleep the best way I can. However, some stuff do get me down sometimes, like recently I had the flu and this week a nasty cough has been brewing — making me spend this Sunday in bed with lots of fluid intake and yes, enough cough medicine that made me groggy the whole day.

I’ve been meaning to blog and maybe do some accutane reviews. But it has always been a case of ‘the spirit is willing but the body just isn’t stepping up to it’.

Anyways, A went to Manila early this morning to attend to some personal business. It’s past 530 pm and realized I haven’t eaten a decent meal yet. Oh well, time to get out of this box of an apartment and go get myself an all-in-one-lunch-and-dinner (and that much-needed pedicure that kept getting postponed for weeks!).

Four months of separation with Raine certainly felt like 4 years, I kid you not. This weekend however, we were both given the rare opportunity to spend a long weekend together. I got the Monday off from work (and half of Friday actually!) so Raine and I could have this much-deserved long weekend together.

Nothing fancy but I certainly cannot wait any longer for the looming holy week vacation to see him. This was the best time anyway, just before his summer class starts.

3 days and 3 nights is not that long I know, but we just have to make every second count.

Four months away from home now and it certainly feels like forever. A lot of things has transpired in that short period of time, i just hope there’s no accelerated aging along with it. But maybe in some ways that are good, yes…like not losing focus on my personal goals (nothing hifaluting like getting an online nursing degree but just really practical ones!) before leaving bicolandia, maturing in some aspects of my life (hard to believe, but yes!) and learning a lot from humbling experiences here and there.

Nothing changes overnight and it certainly is hard to teach an old dog new tricks (so to speak) so I admit that I remain a work in progress in some things. But I’m still not looking that far beyond and so to address those ‘issues’, the following are for my immediate implementation:

1) Leave the office at 4 pm. That means getting things done on time (if not in advance) and doing every single thing done the first time.  

2) Publish at least one blog post a day. Now that my home office is starting to get into operational level, I really do not have an excuse anymore. Besides, I really do miss it. Okay, i miss blogging ang writing online a LOT!

3) Get to see Raine again at the soonest possible time. Wait…this one should be at the top of my list. Enough said.

Home before dusk for a change. Long day went too fast, too many things went on  — some of them a blur to me at the moment. Sort of difficult in some ways but mostly challenging days and stuff ahead of me, that’s for sure.

Who knows what really lies ahead? I’m done projecting and worrying about things that aren’t here yet. Old cliche, yes. But at the moment I take each day as it comes. And when it’s over I don’t over-analyze it anymore. What’s done is done. And the moments that passed? I won’t have a way of taking any of it back.

So I do my best to start clean each morning when I get up. No yesterdays. No tomorrows either. Enjoy each moment while you still can. The one you hugged today could be gone tomorrow. Nobody knows really. After all, each day could be your last too.

The ultimate rejuvination regimen:

Food? Check. Laundry done? Check. Afternoon nap? Check. ‘Imported labandero’? Check. Internet connection? Check.

Was hoping I can go back to regular blogging mode this weekend, but sleeping and resting got the better of me. Earlier today, I bought food that will last ’til Sunday. Now I can spend the rest of the weekend in total recluse.

I just realized that if you are commuting daily like me, the road (read: all the too many people and the vehicles on it) and the outside world in general can really get stressful. In fact, stressful compared to the actual work that you do in the office.

No wonder I’d rather stay inside my little apartment on weekends. And now that I am connected at home? I have an excuse to forget the outside world and relax on cyberspace instead.

Hello indeed. Daragang Magayon is still alive in kicking. ‘Factory worker’ at the moment, spending an average of 4 hours a day on the commute. It’s been a month since I moved into my own apartment. That was a huge accomplishment! No complaints so far, except the commute time just takes too long. So I’ll most probably be moving to Calamba in a few months — depending on how my contract turns out…we’ll see.

The best news however is that Globe Wimax was installed just now. So expect me to be more visible online in the coming days. Actually I’m so excited to blog again, (even if it’s just about top anti aging products and totally unrelated to what I used to do) I can still use the moolah you know.

To say that I miss blogging and having my own internet connection at home, is a huge understatement. Anyways, I’m just glad I haven’t been ‘fired’ by the blog network yet. Now I know what I’m gonna spend my nights and weekends on. He he.